Category: Personal

  • The Dream is Over

    I had asked David if he wanted to have lunch on Thursday, and he said he didn’t think he’d have time. So I was a little surprised when he called me Thursday morning and said, “You still want to have lunch? I have all afternoon.” Turned out, they laid off all of Mirim. I was…

  • So Much for Being Appreciated

    So, just when you think life’s starting to really go well again, you get thrown a massive curveball. My one year anniversary at Mirim was supposed to be this Tuesday, but I got called into Linda’s office yesterday afternoon and was unceremoniously laid off. Three months ago they told me I was up for a…

  • Ooh! Aqua!

    While Jennie continues to play Dr. Mario 64, I decided to write my first entry on my brand new iBook. As much as anything, I bought it so that I could goof around with Mac OS X. It’s pretty cool so far. It’s got its quirks, but so did Linux when I started playing with…

  • Bored, Bored, Bored

    So there are apparently only two times I write in this diary – when I’m feeling depressed and/or bored. Today it’s more the latter than the former. I can’t seem to figure out this bug I’m trying to crack. It’s one of the few still outstanding for release, so it’s not like I can leave…

  • Oh Yeah, I Forgot – I’m Depressed!

    So I forgot to mention in yesterday’s entry how I was feeling in general. I went to see the doctor a couple weeks ago, the same day as July 2’s entry. The doctor confirmed that I was depressed – in fact, severely depressed. He said the fact that I hadn’t been feeling suicidal was remarkable…

  • Ow! That Hurt!

    I really, really hate getting blindsided. For six months, we have been gearing up at Mirim to change directions from a Microsoft-only solution to a truly cross-platform product using J2EE and JFC/Swing, partly at my urging. All of a sudden at our lunch meeting today, our bosses tell us that they made a “business decision”…

  • I Think I’m On to Something

    So over coffee last night (and in an email yesterday that I didn’t read until this morning), Jennie said to me, “I think maybe you should write another entry so that people don’t think we’re still fighting.” So for the two of you out there that read this, we’re not fighting anymore. We’ve buried the…

  • Reflections on Arguing

    I think fighting’s a lot easier when you shout. When you raise your voice, it’s much easier to sit or stand there in self-righteousness and anger, and not have to look at the pain you’ve caused on your loved one’s face. It’s so much easier to get a rise out of the other person, and…

  • Greetings from San Francisco

    So I’m writing this while I’m in San Francisco at JavaOne, so I won’t even get it posted until next week when I get back to an internet connection. Right now I’m at a Giants–Padres game at Pacific Bell Park. I wanted to come to the game, but it’s really cold and I don’t really…

  • Some People Call Me a Space Cowboy…

    (yeah) Some call me the gangster of love… I have no idea why I wrote that. It was just kind of running through my head. I don’t think I should go up to Greeley on weeknights anymore. I’ve been a zombie pretty much all day. I went up to watch the Kings–Avalanche game (the Avs…